Ciara's Response to Today's Reaction

l'homme de l nature et de la vérité believes that revenge exists.  He believes that he can respond with vengeance against others, justifiably, if he believes he was wronged.  He can convince himself that there is a legitimate reason for his his anger, and the act of revenge he will therefore perform.  He weighs both sides: letting it go, or getting revenge.  He chooses revenge because, after what seems like extended contemplation, he comes to the conclusion hat getting revenge trumps all other options.

Now we come to the mouse.  The mouse is slightly more hesitant.  Overwhelmingly, cripplingly more hesitant, actually.  He wonders if revenge is suitable, but cannot decide.  He then wonders if the other person deserves repercussions, and he cannot decide.  He then finds himself pondering if his actions would have any consequences at all, and he cannot decide.  By trying to decide whether revenge is worth it at all, he opens up a trove of new questions that further push him into the depths of uncertainty, because the ouse realizes that there never really is one answer.  There aren't two answers.  There are multiple answers, each that could be granted an equal amount of validity.  So, the mouse (the narrator) creeps ignominiously into its mouse hole (Petersburg), which isn't even a decision, but more of a societal force.  He has been forced into this hole by the disapproval and lack of understanding of society and his inability to make decisions.  He will sit in this mouse hole and bathe in the swamp of emotions, doubts, scorn, self-hate, and spite his mind has graciously created for him.


l'homme de l nature et de la vérité believes he has already found all truths.  Even though he knows there is much left to discover, he believes that this information is a conclusion in itself.  The l'homme de l nature et de la vérité is so insistent on defining boundaries for everything, so insistent on forming a conclusion and an answer for life's unexplainable infinities that he cannot accept the fact that his quest to find the answers is only creating the most impenetrable wall in human history.  By trying to break down the wall of knowledge, we are building an even greater one without even knowing it.


But only the mouse knows this.  Therefore, the mouse willl continue to live in his mouse hole, acutely conscious, acutely aware that he is alone and has no one, isolated, mocked, shunned unappreciated, and scarred all because he can see the truths (or lack thereof) that no one else can.